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Pieces that wouldn’t fit in an answer — on the tiny libraries the books have started quietly turning up in, on how engineers guess, and on the particular angle a neurodiverse brain brings to writing people from the outside.

Tiny Libraries

On the phone-box and church-porch book exchange, and why copies of the books have started quietly turning up in them.

One of the things I have always loved about England is the tiny library.

These are the little community book exchanges you find in converted red telephone boxes, village halls, church porches, cafés or small cabinets by the roadside. Sometimes they contain only a few shelves of books. There is usually nobody supervising them and very little in the way of rules. You take something you would like to read, return it when you are finished, leave something of your own if you have something to spare, and trust everyone else to treat the place with the same respect.

I love what that represents. It is a very simple act of community: sharing something you own with strangers because they might enjoy it, trusting them to look after it, and hoping that occasionally they will contribute something of themselves in return. There is something about that which feels, to me, like a particularly lovely expression of English life.

Now that my books have begun to find a few readers, I wanted to contribute in my own small way.

So I’ve started quietly dropping off copies of the first Mr. Gorzug and Corey Naylor books in tiny libraries whenever I happen across one. There is no programme, no list and certainly no organised distribution strategy. I simply find one occasionally, decide that one of the books might belong there, and leave it behind.

I’m an introverted autistic man, so book signings, appearances and standing in shops trying to persuade strangers to talk to me are unlikely ever to be my natural habitat. Leaving a book on a shelf for someone to discover in their own time feels rather more like me.

It isn’t a grand gesture. It is simply something I can do.

And I rather like the thought of Mr. Gorzug and Corey quietly turning up in unexpected corners of the country.

Author’s Note: Trust Me

On engineering hunches, why an experienced hand says “trust me”, and how a janitor with no schematics came out of it.

I am a software engineer, game designer and writer, and I have spent much of my working life building complicated systems and then watching people interact with them in ways no designer could reasonably have predicted.

Software engineering is often described as a logical discipline. This is true in much the same way that a ship is described by its official schematic: accurate, useful and missing quite a lot.

From the outside, the work can look like an orderly procession. A problem is analysed, a solution is designed, engineers write precise instructions, tests confirm the result and the machine behaves. There are plans, diagrams, specifications, reviews and issue trackers. Uncertainty is given a ticket number and moved into the appropriate column.

All of those things matter.

They also coexist with deadlines, inherited systems, undocumented dependencies, old decisions nobody remembers making and users who interact with software in ways the original designers never imagined.

Computers may be logical. Software projects are made by people.

Sometimes a system fails in a way the documentation says it cannot. The logs are incomplete. The obvious explanation is wrong. The component reporting that everything is fine is the one causing the problem. Everyone is waiting for proof that cannot exist until somebody decides where to look.

At that point, an experienced engineer may say something deeply unscientific.

“I think it’s over there.”

“Why?”

“I’m not sure yet.”

Or, in more dangerous circumstances:

“Trust me.”

This sounds like guesswork. Sometimes it is. More often, it is experience arriving before explanation. Years of bugs, failed assumptions, odd timings, closed tickets, improvised workarounds and systems behaving correctly in entirely the wrong way have been compressed into a hunch. The conscious mind has not yet produced the report, but some quieter part has already recognised the pattern.

There is a small act of faith involved, although it is not blind faith. It is provisional trust in accumulated experience, in colleagues and in a mental model that has not yet been translated into neat sentences. The leap comes first. The evidence catches up afterwards.

Sometimes the stakes are one line of code and a nervous deployment. Sometimes a company commits millions of pounds to a product, platform or technical direction because someone believes the incomplete evidence points that way.

There may be prototypes, forecasts, research, review meetings and enough spreadsheets to make the uncertainty look organised. None of them can provide the final answer in advance. Whether the decision was wise is often known only when the product ships, the system goes live and the results arrive.

You make the change. You reroute the traffic. You replace the architecture everyone understands with one you believe will survive what comes next. You tell the rest of the team, with considerably more confidence than you currently possess, “Trust me.”

Sometimes the hunch is wrong.

Good engineering does not pretend otherwise. It provides checks, backups, test environments and ways to retreat without setting fire to anything expensive. It asks what happens if the intuition fails. It establishes the limits, watches the pressure and makes sure someone knows where the emergency cutoff is.

Corey is not a software engineer, but this is how he understands the Radiant Accord.

Officers have schematics. Corey has knocks, smells, vibrations, bad doors and the knowledge that a pipe sounds wrong. He knows which system lies politely, which fault was closed without being fixed and which route exists only because the people who use it stopped waiting for official recognition. When the plan runs out, he often has only a hunch and the conviction that the ship will respond the way experience says it should.

This is also why Corey needs Marra.

A hunch can find the answer. It can also get people killed.

Marra asks what happens if he is wrong. She wants the safe range, the cutoff, the failure condition and a definition of “less than a second” that does not depend entirely on Corey holding a wheel. Corey makes the leap. Marra gives it boundaries. Pell records the decision, assigns responsibility and ensures that, should everyone survive, the forms will be waiting.

To me, that combination is closer to real engineering than the image of a lone, perfectly rational mind planning everything correctly in advance.

Good engineering is collective. It combines formal knowledge with practical knowledge, careful design with intuition, and evidence with the courage to act before the evidence is complete. It depends on the architect who understands the system’s intended shape, the technician who knows how it actually behaves and the person closest to the fault who can hear that something has changed.

That is one reason Corey made sense to me.

He is not a chosen hero. He is simply the person standing nearest the broken thing. He notices the small wrongness before anyone important does. He knows the parts of the system that were omitted from the presentation. And when reason has taken him as far as it can, he is willing to point at an alarming piece of machinery and say, with considerably more confidence than the available documentation supports:

“Trust me.”

Sometimes that is recklessness.

Sometimes it is expertise arriving before the explanation.

The difficult part is knowing which one you are looking at.

Preferably before somebody opens the foam line.

A Note on Neurodiversity

Why “superpower” has never felt like the right word, and what writing aliens has to do with it.

People sometimes describe autism as a superpower. It is usually meant kindly, but I have never found it especially accurate.

The world is, for the most part, designed around neurotypical expectations. When your brain works differently, that can create difficulties other people may never even notice are there.

Sometimes they are small and ridiculous. I have, for example, read a PULL TO OPEN sign through a glass door and obediently tried to pull it, despite the fact that the writing was backwards and clearly intended for the person standing on the other side.

Sometimes the difficulties are less funny. A stressful meeting can use up most of the social energy available for an entire day, while the working world cheerfully schedules three more and expects you to continue functioning as though nothing has happened.

So no, I do not think of neurodiversity as a superpower.

At the same time, I have never found disability to be a complete description of my own experience either. It is simply part of the particular collection of quirks that makes me who I am. Some of those quirks make life harder. Some make very little difference. And occasionally, they give me a perspective I am genuinely grateful for.

Writing is one of those occasions.

Spending much of my life slightly outside the assumptions other people seem to share naturally has made it easier for me to imagine characters who are looking at humanity from the outside. When I write aliens, monsters or other non-human characters trying to understand human behaviour, there is inevitably a little of that experience in them: the sense that everyone else appears to know rules nobody remembers explaining, and that perfectly ordinary things can become strange when viewed from a different angle.

I would not trade that perspective away.

I would, however, quite like the world occasionally to meet neurodiverse people halfway, rather than congratulating us on how successfully we have learned to contort ourselves into shapes that fit it.

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